BlogSpot is offering a new version of blogging that will allow me to control who can or can't view my blog. As soon as it's available, I will be switching my account to a more private one, so that I can control who is reading what I am writing.
For those of you that are interested in still following my journey, please let me know. There are several ways to contact me. I'm not going to post my email or phone number on this site, but I'll post a similar message in chat rooms I have been keeping up with over the past year. Responding privately to a previous message from the chat groups will be the best way to get in touch with me, as I can post my email privately in those groups.
Thanks again to those of you who have shown me 110% love and support. I look forward to sharing my journey to motherhood with all of you, as Eddie and I have several exciting options on the horizon! :)
Thursday, October 26, 2006
Friday, October 20, 2006
I Can Hardly Wait!
Tomorrow Eddie and I are taking our first official vacation in over a year. We did go down to Florida for July 4th, but it was only for a long weekend. This is our first REAL vacation because Eddie is actually getting 5 days off. Woo-hoo!! I can't wait to relax and do what ever we want, when ever we want. As of now, our plans are to play golf, play tennis, walk on the beach, ride bikes, catch up on reading, catch up on sleep, and just generally decompress. I think getting away from St. Louis and all of the IVF stuff is just what the doctor ordered.....for both of us!
I'm definitely feeling more positive about the future now. This week has been pretty tough, but each day is easier than the last. I have found comfort and strength in my daily devotional times and I have been meditating on a verse that a dear friend shared with me. (Thanks, Jenn J.!!) For those of you that are struggling with infertility, I would highly encourage you to read a verse from the Bible. It's Psalm 113:9. It has given me so much strength during the past several months and I hope that it can do the same for others that are going through infertility, too. At this point in my life, I have finally realized that I am not in control.....God is and His plan is always perfect. It's been hard for me to accept that at times, but I feel MUCH better realizing that I can only do so much in my life and the rest is up to Him.
Anyway, I won't be updating my blog while I'm gone, but I promise to write more when I get back.
I'm definitely feeling more positive about the future now. This week has been pretty tough, but each day is easier than the last. I have found comfort and strength in my daily devotional times and I have been meditating on a verse that a dear friend shared with me. (Thanks, Jenn J.!!) For those of you that are struggling with infertility, I would highly encourage you to read a verse from the Bible. It's Psalm 113:9. It has given me so much strength during the past several months and I hope that it can do the same for others that are going through infertility, too. At this point in my life, I have finally realized that I am not in control.....God is and His plan is always perfect. It's been hard for me to accept that at times, but I feel MUCH better realizing that I can only do so much in my life and the rest is up to Him.
Anyway, I won't be updating my blog while I'm gone, but I promise to write more when I get back.
Thursday, October 19, 2006
Setting the Record Straight
On Tuesday's post, I listed a collection of thoughts that I've had over the past few years about feelings I have discovered going down my TTC road. Unfortunately, one comment in particular has greatly offended my family. That comment was:
-That family would act like getting pregnant was a competition between all the young couples in the family, and the first one to get pregnant "wins".
I would like to clarify this statement. When my older brother and his wife got pregnant for the first time, they announced their pregnancy the day after my younger sister's wedding, which was also 4 months before my wedding. Everyone was really excited and happy for them. We were all sitting around my parent's dining room looking at the tiny ultrasound picture of their new little one and a comment was made. That comment was, "Well, Bill and Missy are now pregnant. I wonder who will be next. Will it be Margaret and Clark or Jenn and Eddie?" I know that the comment was made in a time of happiness and that no one really "meant" to say that, but it was said and the thought has creeped back into my head from time to time. Especially, since my younger sister announced her pregnancy almost 10 weeks ago.
I know that my family doesn't see pregnancy as a competition. In fact, my older brother and his wife were waiting to try for #3 until AFTER I was finished with my IVF stuff because they didn't want to interefere in what I was going through. I have the utmost respect for them and I don't think they'll ever know how much that meant to me because I would NEVER ask ANYONE to put their life on hold for me or my situations.
I think (and hope) that most of the people who read my blog realize that the comments I listed on Tuesday were not meant as jabs to anyone. They were simply a collection of my thoughts and writing my thoughts down has been extremely therapeutic these past few weeks. I apologize if I have hurt people by my postings, as that was never my intention.
-That family would act like getting pregnant was a competition between all the young couples in the family, and the first one to get pregnant "wins".
I would like to clarify this statement. When my older brother and his wife got pregnant for the first time, they announced their pregnancy the day after my younger sister's wedding, which was also 4 months before my wedding. Everyone was really excited and happy for them. We were all sitting around my parent's dining room looking at the tiny ultrasound picture of their new little one and a comment was made. That comment was, "Well, Bill and Missy are now pregnant. I wonder who will be next. Will it be Margaret and Clark or Jenn and Eddie?" I know that the comment was made in a time of happiness and that no one really "meant" to say that, but it was said and the thought has creeped back into my head from time to time. Especially, since my younger sister announced her pregnancy almost 10 weeks ago.
I know that my family doesn't see pregnancy as a competition. In fact, my older brother and his wife were waiting to try for #3 until AFTER I was finished with my IVF stuff because they didn't want to interefere in what I was going through. I have the utmost respect for them and I don't think they'll ever know how much that meant to me because I would NEVER ask ANYONE to put their life on hold for me or my situations.
I think (and hope) that most of the people who read my blog realize that the comments I listed on Tuesday were not meant as jabs to anyone. They were simply a collection of my thoughts and writing my thoughts down has been extremely therapeutic these past few weeks. I apologize if I have hurt people by my postings, as that was never my intention.
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
I am Truly Blessed
I can't thank all of you enough for the continuing outpouring of support I have received over the past couple of days. I have received many comments on my blog and many emails over the last two days that have really touched my heart. I never knew I had so many people out there who care about me and what is going on my life until I began my infertility journey.
I love each and every one of you and to all of my friends around the world, I hope that we are able to meet up some day so that I can thank you and hug you each in person!
My journey to becoming a mother isn't over....It's just on hold for now. I will not get back on BCP, so there's always tha slight chance that I can be blessed with a "miracle" baby, but I'm not too hopeful. My doctors have basically told me that there's not much chance of my ovulating a good egg on my own, and I'm trying desperatley to accept that. Eddie and I have talked about adoption, but we don't want to jump into anything without taking some time to heal and grieve over the losses we have had.
I did have a repeat beta today and my HCG came back at 4....again. My dr. thinks that one of the embryos probably implanted, but wasn't strong enough to continue growing. I have stopped my PIO shots (YAY!!!!!), so I should start a new cycle any day now. Hopefully, it will be sooner rather than later, as I don't want to be dealing with AF during my upcoming vacation.
Anyway, thank you again to ALL of you. I really do have the best friends in the world. Both here in St. Louis and elsewhere. I love you all!! :)
I love each and every one of you and to all of my friends around the world, I hope that we are able to meet up some day so that I can thank you and hug you each in person!
My journey to becoming a mother isn't over....It's just on hold for now. I will not get back on BCP, so there's always tha slight chance that I can be blessed with a "miracle" baby, but I'm not too hopeful. My doctors have basically told me that there's not much chance of my ovulating a good egg on my own, and I'm trying desperatley to accept that. Eddie and I have talked about adoption, but we don't want to jump into anything without taking some time to heal and grieve over the losses we have had.
I did have a repeat beta today and my HCG came back at 4....again. My dr. thinks that one of the embryos probably implanted, but wasn't strong enough to continue growing. I have stopped my PIO shots (YAY!!!!!), so I should start a new cycle any day now. Hopefully, it will be sooner rather than later, as I don't want to be dealing with AF during my upcoming vacation.
Anyway, thank you again to ALL of you. I really do have the best friends in the world. Both here in St. Louis and elsewhere. I love you all!! :)
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
Learning the Hard Way
What Nobody Told Me About Trying to Conceive...
-That unprotected sex doesn't necessarily lead to pregnancy. (Duh!)
-That my sex life would start to resemble a science experiment.
-That I would lose ALL sense of modesty while going through infertililty treatments.
-That the longer I try to conceive, the more pregnant women spring up around me.
-That deep down inside, I can be a very jealous person.
-That one day I wouldn't mind checking my cervical fluid or cervix position to see if it is my fertile period.
-That I should have gone to medical school like my parents suggested, because I've had to do so much medical research up to now just to figure out what was wrong with me, and now I might as well be an M.D.
-That I would know more about the female reproductive system and menstrual cycle than some of the doctors I have seen.
-That living my life in 2 week increments would be the normal thing to do.
-That I never knew how much I wanted to see those 2 pink lines...until only one shows up every month.
-That simply relaxing will NOT get me pregnant. The husband has to do some work too!
-That I have no control over some of the goals I set...
-That wishing really hard for something doesn't make it happen, and staring at my BBT chart doesn't make it change!
-That a pregnancy doesn't always equal a baby.
-That miscarriage is so common.
-That I would wish we had started trying to conceive earlier.
-That my friends' pregnancies would start to make me sad instead of happy.
-That it wouldn't happen the first time I didn't use birth control like I was led to believe in school.
-That family would act like getting pregnant was a competition between all the young couples in the family, and the first one to get pregnant "wins".
-That my husband is the most wonderful and caring man!
-That it is insensitive to ask people when they are going to try having a baby. They might be trying and having difficulties just like me!
-That women who do get pregnant are so very blessed!
-That I could have been rich by saving the money I spent on birth control pills, which were obviously unnecessary.
-That I would be happy to see abundant cervical fluid and tell my husband about it.
-That other people's "good news" of pregnancy makes me sad and when they tell me they have good news, I hope that they just saved a bunch of money on car insurance by switching to Geico.
-That had I bought stock in Clearblue Easy I'd have my mansion on a beach in Florida by now.
-That having my period show up would make me cry, no matter whose bathroom I was in.
-That it does not get easier ... each cycle is harder than the last.
-That I wouldn't want to hold or see someone's baby because it just hurts way too much.
-That a group of "strangers" who I will probably never meet, have now become my "best friends" when it comes to trying to conceive.
-That I would splash urine on my face while taking apart a home pregnancy test in the hopes that there really was a 2nd pink line hiding in it.
-That talking about sex with fellow women who are trying to conceive would be so easy.
-That one day all of this will hopefully make me stronger.
-That I would have NO TOLERANCE for pregnant women's complaints about morning sickness, weight gain, etc... (I would give anything to have those feelings.)
-That no one I know would have any understanding as to how I feel.
-That my temper and patience are much shorter than I ever thought.
-That infertility is not as rare as I was led to believe.
-That I am very bitter towards unmarried accidental pregnancies, and slightly bitter towards married accidental pregnancies.
-That some people just say the wrong things.
-That I would be so sad and ashamed.
-That when my period shows up I would feel broken and dysfunctional.
-That my friendship with my real life girlfriends would suffer because they got pregnant after being off the pill for 3 weeks.
-That this would be, by far, one of the hardest things I will ever have to go through.
-That I HAVE to have sex even though I don't feel like it, but because my fertility monitor says HIGH or PEAK.
-That my dr. would tell me when I can or can't have sex with my husband.
-That people would pity me and feel sorry for me. (I hate that!)
-That I would meet such a wonderful group of people online, that I can share my sorrow, frustration and fears with.
-That I would feel stupid and naive for thinking a pregnancy would occur "when it was supposed to."
-That answering questions (and usually lying) about pregnancy or family plans would hurt so badly.
-That unprotected sex doesn't necessarily lead to pregnancy. (Duh!)
-That my sex life would start to resemble a science experiment.
-That I would lose ALL sense of modesty while going through infertililty treatments.
-That the longer I try to conceive, the more pregnant women spring up around me.
-That deep down inside, I can be a very jealous person.
-That one day I wouldn't mind checking my cervical fluid or cervix position to see if it is my fertile period.
-That I should have gone to medical school like my parents suggested, because I've had to do so much medical research up to now just to figure out what was wrong with me, and now I might as well be an M.D.
-That I would know more about the female reproductive system and menstrual cycle than some of the doctors I have seen.
-That living my life in 2 week increments would be the normal thing to do.
-That I never knew how much I wanted to see those 2 pink lines...until only one shows up every month.
-That simply relaxing will NOT get me pregnant. The husband has to do some work too!
-That I have no control over some of the goals I set...
-That wishing really hard for something doesn't make it happen, and staring at my BBT chart doesn't make it change!
-That a pregnancy doesn't always equal a baby.
-That miscarriage is so common.
-That I would wish we had started trying to conceive earlier.
-That my friends' pregnancies would start to make me sad instead of happy.
-That it wouldn't happen the first time I didn't use birth control like I was led to believe in school.
-That family would act like getting pregnant was a competition between all the young couples in the family, and the first one to get pregnant "wins".
-That my husband is the most wonderful and caring man!
-That it is insensitive to ask people when they are going to try having a baby. They might be trying and having difficulties just like me!
-That women who do get pregnant are so very blessed!
-That I could have been rich by saving the money I spent on birth control pills, which were obviously unnecessary.
-That I would be happy to see abundant cervical fluid and tell my husband about it.
-That other people's "good news" of pregnancy makes me sad and when they tell me they have good news, I hope that they just saved a bunch of money on car insurance by switching to Geico.
-That had I bought stock in Clearblue Easy I'd have my mansion on a beach in Florida by now.
-That having my period show up would make me cry, no matter whose bathroom I was in.
-That it does not get easier ... each cycle is harder than the last.
-That I wouldn't want to hold or see someone's baby because it just hurts way too much.
-That a group of "strangers" who I will probably never meet, have now become my "best friends" when it comes to trying to conceive.
-That I would splash urine on my face while taking apart a home pregnancy test in the hopes that there really was a 2nd pink line hiding in it.
-That talking about sex with fellow women who are trying to conceive would be so easy.
-That one day all of this will hopefully make me stronger.
-That I would have NO TOLERANCE for pregnant women's complaints about morning sickness, weight gain, etc... (I would give anything to have those feelings.)
-That no one I know would have any understanding as to how I feel.
-That my temper and patience are much shorter than I ever thought.
-That infertility is not as rare as I was led to believe.
-That I am very bitter towards unmarried accidental pregnancies, and slightly bitter towards married accidental pregnancies.
-That some people just say the wrong things.
-That I would be so sad and ashamed.
-That when my period shows up I would feel broken and dysfunctional.
-That my friendship with my real life girlfriends would suffer because they got pregnant after being off the pill for 3 weeks.
-That this would be, by far, one of the hardest things I will ever have to go through.
-That I HAVE to have sex even though I don't feel like it, but because my fertility monitor says HIGH or PEAK.
-That my dr. would tell me when I can or can't have sex with my husband.
-That people would pity me and feel sorry for me. (I hate that!)
-That I would meet such a wonderful group of people online, that I can share my sorrow, frustration and fears with.
-That I would feel stupid and naive for thinking a pregnancy would occur "when it was supposed to."
-That answering questions (and usually lying) about pregnancy or family plans would hurt so badly.
Monday, October 16, 2006
Rainy Days and Mondays....
....always get me down. It's raining, it's Monday, and my beta was negative, which was what we expected. My HCG came back at a 4 and anything below 5 is considered a negative. I was so close, and yet so far away. I'm actually doing MUCH better than I thought I would right now. I'm really glad that I started testing early, because it helped me to mentally prepare for the bad news we received today.
Eddie and I will definitely be taking a TTC break for at least 6 months. This past year has been incredibly emotional and I think we are just going to take some time to enjoy each other and not worry about trying to get pregnant.
Eddie had told his boss that we were doing IVF and when he told the boss that it didn't work, his boss told him that we should take a vacation. So, Eddie is taking off work next week and we are going down to Florida. My inlaws offered to buy us two round trip tickets to Orlando because they own a house on Vero Beach. We only have to pay for a rental car, so it's a great way to get away and not spend a lot of money. I think a little break to the beach is just what we need. We'll be able to swim, walk on the beach, play golf, play tennis, and ride bikes. I can hardly wait! I can't believe that my crazy MIL bought us the tickets....we were incredibly shocked by her generous offer, but we took her up on it.
I will continue to post on this site, even though I won't be going through IVF again any time soon. Feel free to check up on it if you want to know what's going on in our crazy lives.
Thank you SO much to each and every one of you for joining me on the crazy IVF journey. Hopefully, God will bless us with a child some day....when HIS time is right. :)
Eddie and I will definitely be taking a TTC break for at least 6 months. This past year has been incredibly emotional and I think we are just going to take some time to enjoy each other and not worry about trying to get pregnant.
Eddie had told his boss that we were doing IVF and when he told the boss that it didn't work, his boss told him that we should take a vacation. So, Eddie is taking off work next week and we are going down to Florida. My inlaws offered to buy us two round trip tickets to Orlando because they own a house on Vero Beach. We only have to pay for a rental car, so it's a great way to get away and not spend a lot of money. I think a little break to the beach is just what we need. We'll be able to swim, walk on the beach, play golf, play tennis, and ride bikes. I can hardly wait! I can't believe that my crazy MIL bought us the tickets....we were incredibly shocked by her generous offer, but we took her up on it.
I will continue to post on this site, even though I won't be going through IVF again any time soon. Feel free to check up on it if you want to know what's going on in our crazy lives.
Thank you SO much to each and every one of you for joining me on the crazy IVF journey. Hopefully, God will bless us with a child some day....when HIS time is right. :)
Friday, October 13, 2006
False Hope
I officially hate Dollar Tree tests. I have been getting progressively darker lines the past couple of days on them, but I am testing negative with Equate and FRER. I would think that if the IVF worked, I would at least have a hint of a line on one of the "real" tests, but that's not the case. Oh well...
Eddie and I have decided that we will not try IVF again. It is too much financially and emotionally to go through. We've talked about adoption, but I don't think either one of us really wants to do that. I'm just trying to come to terms with the fact that I may never have children of my own. It's hard to think about, but it's a reality that I need to start facing. All of the drugs and tests that I have to do every month to get my body to do the basic function of ovulating has really taken a toll on both me and Eddie and we don't want to continue down that road.
I'll update again on Monday with my beta results, but I'm 100% convinced that it will come back negative. Thank you to all of you for you love, support, prayers, and thoughts during this process.
Eddie and I have decided that we will not try IVF again. It is too much financially and emotionally to go through. We've talked about adoption, but I don't think either one of us really wants to do that. I'm just trying to come to terms with the fact that I may never have children of my own. It's hard to think about, but it's a reality that I need to start facing. All of the drugs and tests that I have to do every month to get my body to do the basic function of ovulating has really taken a toll on both me and Eddie and we don't want to continue down that road.
I'll update again on Monday with my beta results, but I'm 100% convinced that it will come back negative. Thank you to all of you for you love, support, prayers, and thoughts during this process.
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Testing out
I have a confession to make. I have been testing out my trigger. Basically, I've been taking HPT's (home pregnancy tests) since 7 days past transfer (7 DPT). There was a faint line on days 7 and 8 DPT, but I only got an evaporation line today at 9 DPT. I know it's still REALLY early to be testing, but I was hoping to be one of those lucky people who gets an early BFP. Apparently, I'm not that lucky. Oh well....I'll keep testing every day until my beta, which is Monday morning.
I'll keep you all posted if I get a positive test before then!
I'll keep you all posted if I get a positive test before then!
Friday, October 06, 2006
Nothing new
There's not much to report. I spent the day either in bed or on the couch. Eddie and I watched X-Men III tonight. We didn't think it was that good. Tomorrow, we're going to watch "Thank you for Smoking." It should be interesting.
Only 10 more days until my beta!
Only 10 more days until my beta!
Thursday, October 05, 2006
Not quite what we had hoped
Today was my transfer. When Dr. Silber and Dr. DeRosa came into my waiting room this morning, I knew something was wrong. Dr. Silber was very honest and said that things weren't looking very good. Out of 18 eggs, only three fertilized. All three of them have fragmentation, which means that the cells are not dividing properly. On a scale of 0-4 (with 4 being the best), mine were graded at a 2. I was told that my chances of having a successful pregnancy have been reduced from 65% to 35%. Great....
We decided to transfer all three of the embryos, which was very quick and painless. I was told that my transfer went perfectly, but Dr. Silber is not optimistic that this cycle will work. If it doesn't work, Silber and DeRosa have already decided on a minimal stimulation IVF cycle in January or February. It all sounds great in theory, but I don't know if can or want to go through this emotional process again.
So, now I am in the two-week-wait (2ww), or as I like to call it, the two-week-torture. There is absolutely nothing that I can do to help my embryos implant, so I have to sit and wait until my pregnancy test, which will be on Monday, Oct. 16. That's 11 days from now, so it's going to be a very looooooooong wait.
Please say prayers for us because we desperately need them right now. I know that everything thing will work out like it's supposed to, but I hope and pray that God is looking after my little embryos and helps them to pull through!
We decided to transfer all three of the embryos, which was very quick and painless. I was told that my transfer went perfectly, but Dr. Silber is not optimistic that this cycle will work. If it doesn't work, Silber and DeRosa have already decided on a minimal stimulation IVF cycle in January or February. It all sounds great in theory, but I don't know if can or want to go through this emotional process again.
So, now I am in the two-week-wait (2ww), or as I like to call it, the two-week-torture. There is absolutely nothing that I can do to help my embryos implant, so I have to sit and wait until my pregnancy test, which will be on Monday, Oct. 16. That's 11 days from now, so it's going to be a very looooooooong wait.
Please say prayers for us because we desperately need them right now. I know that everything thing will work out like it's supposed to, but I hope and pray that God is looking after my little embryos and helps them to pull through!
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
One day more....
Another day, another destiny! (Excerpt from Les Mis...just in case you're wondering.) Well, tomorrow is the big transfer day and I'm SO excited.
Today was pretty slow. My mom and I went to the mall for a couple of hours. She was excited because Macy's just moved into town and she was able to buy some pants. I, on the other hand, didn't feel like buying a thing. It's hard to buy new clothes when you feel like you've swallowed an elephant. Besides, I'm going to be pregnant soon, so I don't need any new clothes right now. Right?!?!?
The rest of the day was spent on the couch. I'm all caught up on NBC's trashy soaps and I've watched Judge Judy until I'm blue in the face. Hopefully, the bedrest will be lifted soon after the transfer and I can get back to golf, tennis, and walking all the time.
Embryo transfer is tomorrow at 8:15. Please keep all of us in your prayers. We're really going to need them these next two weeks.
Today was pretty slow. My mom and I went to the mall for a couple of hours. She was excited because Macy's just moved into town and she was able to buy some pants. I, on the other hand, didn't feel like buying a thing. It's hard to buy new clothes when you feel like you've swallowed an elephant. Besides, I'm going to be pregnant soon, so I don't need any new clothes right now. Right?!?!?
The rest of the day was spent on the couch. I'm all caught up on NBC's trashy soaps and I've watched Judge Judy until I'm blue in the face. Hopefully, the bedrest will be lifted soon after the transfer and I can get back to golf, tennis, and walking all the time.
Embryo transfer is tomorrow at 8:15. Please keep all of us in your prayers. We're really going to need them these next two weeks.
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
Heating pads rule!
I apologize for taking so long to report. For those of you with upcoming IVF procedures, you'll quickly come to realize that you feel like absolute crap the day after your egg retrieval.
I did hear back from my dr's office that fertilization did occur, but the lab didn't give the office any numbers. *Grrrrrrrrr* I was told that my transfer will take place on Thursday morning at 8:15 a.m. In the mean time, I just have to sit back and wait until then to get any other news. Great......
I went for a short and slow walk with my mom this morning. BIG MISTAKE!!!! I quickly learned that I should have parked my butt ont he couch and not moved for the rest of the day. My little excursion out into my neighborhood cost me dearly and I paid for it the rest of the day. I have had severe cramping and bloating and there is nothing I can do to make it go away. I did manage to buy a heating pad at Walgreens today and that has been my security blanket.
Heck....If I have to be uncomfortable, I might as well have a heating pad to keep me nice and toasty. Nevermind that it was 94 degrees here today...I still loved my heating pad.
Hopefully, tomorrow will be slow and uneventful. I will definitely keep all of you posted. Thanks again for the prayers and well-wishes. All of you are the BEST!!
I did hear back from my dr's office that fertilization did occur, but the lab didn't give the office any numbers. *Grrrrrrrrr* I was told that my transfer will take place on Thursday morning at 8:15 a.m. In the mean time, I just have to sit back and wait until then to get any other news. Great......
I went for a short and slow walk with my mom this morning. BIG MISTAKE!!!! I quickly learned that I should have parked my butt ont he couch and not moved for the rest of the day. My little excursion out into my neighborhood cost me dearly and I paid for it the rest of the day. I have had severe cramping and bloating and there is nothing I can do to make it go away. I did manage to buy a heating pad at Walgreens today and that has been my security blanket.
Heck....If I have to be uncomfortable, I might as well have a heating pad to keep me nice and toasty. Nevermind that it was 94 degrees here today...I still loved my heating pad.
Hopefully, tomorrow will be slow and uneventful. I will definitely keep all of you posted. Thanks again for the prayers and well-wishes. All of you are the BEST!!
Monday, October 02, 2006
1 1/2 Dozen
That's how many eggs were retrieved today! 18 eggs!! It has been a long, but good day. I was at the hospital at 5:45 this morning to drop off Eddie's "soldiers" and then I was able to come back home, take a shower, and turn around to return to the hospital. I checked in at 7:45 this morning and there was a lot of "hurry up and wait" time.
Dr. Silber came into my room at 9:40 and talked me through the procedure while I was getting my IV put in. Dr. DeRosa was running a little behind, but he joined us around 9:50. I made sure to ask about my chocolate, caffeine and wine limiations. I was told I could have coke, chocolate and a glass of wine tonight, and that I could get drunk tomorrow if I wanted to. I don't want to get drunk, but I'm DEFINITELY going to take them up on the wine offer!
I was taken back to the operating room at 9:58 and then things moved VERY quickly. I had multiple monitors hooked up to me (one on my finger and several on my chest and back). I was a little panicked because I looked up at the clock at it was 10:00 a.m. and I knew it was time to start. I said, "I hope you don't start right away because I'm still very much aware of what's going on and I want to be knocked out." Everyone chuckled and then the nurse injected something into my IV that had an immediate effect. The room started to get "wavy" and I said, "I've never done recreational drugs, but this stuff is what I imagine them to be like. Thanks!!" I then looked up and saw Dr. DeRosa wink at me and that's the last thing I remembered until I woke up 30 minutes later in my recovery room.
Dr. Silber and Dr. DeRosa met with my mom (Eddie was in Federal Court today) and told her that all of my eggs were excellent quality. After 30 minutes in the recovery room, I was given a shot of Demerol in my arm (great....more needles) and then my first PIO injection. It wasn't too bad.
I spent the day on the couch drifting in and out of sleep because of multiple phone calls. Thank you to ALL of you for your thoughts, well-wishes, prayers, and support. I will post tomorrow with a fertilization report.
Dr. Silber came into my room at 9:40 and talked me through the procedure while I was getting my IV put in. Dr. DeRosa was running a little behind, but he joined us around 9:50. I made sure to ask about my chocolate, caffeine and wine limiations. I was told I could have coke, chocolate and a glass of wine tonight, and that I could get drunk tomorrow if I wanted to. I don't want to get drunk, but I'm DEFINITELY going to take them up on the wine offer!
I was taken back to the operating room at 9:58 and then things moved VERY quickly. I had multiple monitors hooked up to me (one on my finger and several on my chest and back). I was a little panicked because I looked up at the clock at it was 10:00 a.m. and I knew it was time to start. I said, "I hope you don't start right away because I'm still very much aware of what's going on and I want to be knocked out." Everyone chuckled and then the nurse injected something into my IV that had an immediate effect. The room started to get "wavy" and I said, "I've never done recreational drugs, but this stuff is what I imagine them to be like. Thanks!!" I then looked up and saw Dr. DeRosa wink at me and that's the last thing I remembered until I woke up 30 minutes later in my recovery room.
Dr. Silber and Dr. DeRosa met with my mom (Eddie was in Federal Court today) and told her that all of my eggs were excellent quality. After 30 minutes in the recovery room, I was given a shot of Demerol in my arm (great....more needles) and then my first PIO injection. It wasn't too bad.
I spent the day on the couch drifting in and out of sleep because of multiple phone calls. Thank you to ALL of you for your thoughts, well-wishes, prayers, and support. I will post tomorrow with a fertilization report.
Sunday, October 01, 2006
Shot-free for a day
Today is my first day not to take an injection in almost a month. Woo-hoo!! I'm actually really sore from the trigger shot, but I guess I better get used to it. The PIO injections are supposed to be just as bad, if not worse.
My mom came into town tonight and I am SO glad she's here. She's going to take me to my retrieval because Eddie has to be in court. Tomorrow is going to be a long day, but I'm looking forward to it.
I'll post more after the retrieval. Wish us luck!
My mom came into town tonight and I am SO glad she's here. She's going to take me to my retrieval because Eddie has to be in court. Tomorrow is going to be a long day, but I'm looking forward to it.
I'll post more after the retrieval. Wish us luck!
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